Saturday, 14 April 2018

#ICANTKILLMYSELF2018


In the words of Melissa from Melissa’s Wardrobe, #Icantkillmyself2018. For the most part, most serial thinkers can’t help but worry when the going gets tough. And other than early aging, stress and looking miserable, what value has overthinking and worrying ever added to my life? Nothing.

The human in me always has a plan A, B, and C in place. I turn to multiple avenues to solve my issues before it escalates. But when A, B, and C fail, and those problems do escalate, I crash, I burn and I walk around with every emotion slapped across my face. Proverbs 28:26 says, “Those who trust their own insight are foolish, but anyone who walks in wisdom is safe.” I guess I was foolish enough to control something that was out of my control in the first place, and I guess that sometimes it’s reassuring to know that God never said that this life was going to be easy. Yes, he did mention that he was never going to leave me nor forsake me, but not once did he say that I would never have problems, or that my life would be perfect. Having that as a constant reminder kindly brings me back to my senses, and having that ‘I can’t come and kill myself’ mentality allows me to sleep easy at night. 

I searched for this perfect life where there was no such thing as problems. However, that’s just it, problems will always be a part of this life. What might be resolved now, may resurface later. Problems will always come and go, and knocking on "perfections" door could block the very thing that's worth living for.  
So I’m learning to take each day as it comes.
After all, tomorrow’s problems will still be there tomorrow. 


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